Books 1-18

In the depths of the subconscious self
lies the deeper self.
The self, who knows that which one has been forever trying to understand.

And to understand all that lies in the deeper subconscious self, one has been seeking how to find the self.

The more one seeks,
the more it opens,
the more deeper one goes,
the deeper it gets,
the more one tries to understand,
the more confused one gets.
The more one tries to search for it,
the more lost one gets.

For that which one chases,
runs from oneself.
And when one finally sits down,
It comes back to oneself-
from within one.

And till one is finding the way,
one is only finding oneself.

And when one stops and surrenders to the deeper subconscious self,
It opens itself up.
For each is here to remember the self.
For the self is all there is.

It’s only on the surface that ‘the darkness’
lies,
For there is only ‘LIGHT’ beneath.

The more deeper one is able to go,
the more one activates their own light.
And the more light that one emits,
the more they shine bright.

And sometimes the light so bright that it hurts some eyes.
For there is nothing wrong with the self,
the self will always shine.

The deeper one dives into the subconscious self,
the deeper-
THE BRIGHTNESS OF THE LIGHT. 

And when you called out to me,
I was walking my path with love and peace.

And you called out to me,
I heard your deep cry.
And I turned around,
For I felt it deep within me.

And as I looked for you everywhere,
I saw you nowhere.
And when I finally came across you,
My soul was telling me, ‘you are there.’

And I understood not what it said,
Just that I remember you.
And you looked at me in surprise,
And I understood not why I was there.

And then the love started pouring from within,
The love which was hidden forever.
For I had ‘seeked’ you far and wide.
And found you nowhere.

And then when I looked at you,
My heart said, ‘Yes,’
My soul said, ‘Yes,’
And yet my steps did not take me there.
I was tied with invisible chains,
And you did not recognise me anywhere.

I stood there looking at you,
And I stood there forever.
And you unaware of me,
and what I knew,
passing glances now and then.

You said something else,
Your eyes betrayed you.

And here I was waiting for you,
And you never turned.
I stood there for eternity,
waiting for you to turn.
In pain waiting for you,
I choose to love myself.

And when I finally turned around,
My heart would cry in pain,
And I whispered to myself,
‘Worry not, he will also be there.’

And saying this to myself,
I started to walk my path.
And many a times,
I looked behind, and
There you were shaking hands.
Hugging the many who you knew,
Dancing to the sound of music,
that played for the body to sway,
And when I saw you dance,
I understood, and
I walked away.

For I was dancing to the tune of my soul,
That which I could ‘only’ hear.
And then I knew not what happened.
I danced away.

And many a times I looked around,
I turned again and again,
Only to hurt myself,
And finally-
I walked away.

And I walked and I walked,
only to turn again.
Waiting to rest,
was only a reason,
I realised-
I was waiting for you to come my way.

And then I noticed again,
you were distracted again and again.
And here I was waiting for you again.

Finally I heard my own deep cry,
Which said, ‘Walk away,
for till you stand there, my dear,
you will only hurt again and again.’

So I started to take the baby steps,
Learning to love myself on the way.
Understanding myself deeper and deeper,
As hand in hand with my soul,
I walked away.

And then I know not what happened,
you started to fade away.

As I kept dancing to the tune of my soul,
I could hear the whispers that it sang,
And I learnt to sing the same melody,
The core of which was deep within. 

Beyond The Quantum Field of Existence,
Lies that -
that is Beyond Consciousness.

Consciousness is per se,
And
I AM That Consciousness.

For I AM,
I say…

For I Say AS I AM,
I AM…

Beyond that is all,
All That is…
IS ALL.

I AM,
I say…

I AM…
For I AM…
I AM 

The soul whispers the silent golden words and has always been whispering it’s wisdom from within you.

The more you activate love within you, the more clearer you hear the silent whispers.

These whispers are your own souls many wise existences and it’s many journeys from eternity to its own origin of existence.
The As Is.

For HE says to me…

I whisper the sweet nothings,
Guiding you all the time,
I speak to you from within,
Where I lie.

I hear your prayers,
I hear you cry,
I hear all.
All that you say and all that you don’t.
And when you are ready,
You hear ME too.

And then we walk together,
You listening to the tune the soul plays.
And I whisper along with the tune,
And we walk in this way.

As long as you can hear the whispers,
You are aware,
And when you lose your way,
Remember I AM always here.

So sit in stillness, my dear,
Hear ME sing,
For the song that your heart plays,
Is the whisper that only you can hear.

And in these many soul whispers,
You will find all that you have been seeking,
All being sung to you - always.

So sing along with ME,
In stillness and in silence,
Clear your doubts away,
And come let us dance to the silent whispers of the soul… 

And in finding myself,
I came across myself in many forms, sometimes hurt,
sometimes love,
yet I was seeking ‘another.’
The one who would complete me,
was he out there somewhere?
I questioned myself, since I remember.

And then the universe finally gave me my answer, there he was right in front of me.
Just like me-
The same smile,
the same eyes,
the same hurt,
All right in front of me.

And with this, I thought I had found who I was looking for.
Little did I know what had been activated for me to step forward into.

And believe me when I say this,
I had activated many eons of solar years of pain that the soul had carried from eternity.

And here I was…
From stillness and calmness,
then experiencing the push and pull dynamic of the chaser and runner, only hurting myself further.

And how easy it was to lose myself in living the many past, parallel experiences and existences,
not understanding it was a way for me to walk away,
rather than step into it.
But as the longing was the souls longing to merge as one,
I had no control of my own self.
So, I kept going deeper,
activating excruciating pain,
many times, feeling why am I even here.

Finally a little voice within me said,
‘Himali, my dear, walk away.
For till you hold on,
you will be in pain, and
the moment you find the courage to walk away,
you will be free from all and much more.’

And I don’t know how and when I stepped forward and said to myself,
‘I am setting myself free.’
And with a lot of love and support from my family, I walked away.

And as I walked,
many more different forms of beings stepped forward to hold my hand,
guiding me along the way.

From the pain and the hurt,
The duality of existence,
I liberated myself into bliss, and
Divine Love,
into the non-duality of existence.

And holding my hand, many more beautiful beings encouraging me on the way.
I walked away.

And as I walk now with the many beautiful souls, in many forms-
Love, bliss, peace, joy.
I found myself again.
Stillness.

And in stillness and silence, I completed the journey of becoming my true self.

My twin flame,
Is
My Angel.

The bond grows deeper,
As you keep walking within,
activating the many light codes which lay dormant.

For HE says to me…

And as you let go of the control, my dear,
The flow begins.

I AM The Flow,
Who Flows from within you,
You are one with all within and without,
As ME,
As you,
As all.

For I AM 

On the many journeys each experiences many soul truths.
From seeking to finding,
from questioning to experiencing.
From movement to stillness,
from voicing to silence.

On the path to silence…
the many soul experiences,
the many soul lessons,
the many soul journeys,
all leading inwards,
as one.

As within so without,
as above so below.

And then in the stillness of the self,
finding the Absolute Truth within.
Silence the only answer,
the silent self the experience.

And till I was seeking,
I was finding myself.
And when I found myself,
I became silent.

And on the path to silence,
I found many,
the many who were like me, and
me like ‘any.’

Realising that each ‘any’ was me in all,
I became silent finding myself in all.

The seeker seeks the self,
the finder sits in stillness.
And here as the seeker-
I found-
the power of silence.

On the path to silence…
these are some of the souls many experiences while seeking the soul self.

For till I was a seeker,
I looked far and wide,
and when I found the stillness,
I found myself.

And on the path to silence which led me to the many more soul experiences that one can only experience in silence… 

Everything is energy and we all are energetic beings.
As we shift our focus from lack to abundance within, we experience the existence as complete, perfect and bringing that to fruition which is our own outer world, which reflects from within.

As within so without.
As above so below.

Each an expansion of the expanded consciousness in every field of existence.
Existence is ever expanding beyond that which is the quantum field.

The quantum state an energetic field of consciousness, purity, existence beyond existence. That which creates only when one is in that magnetic field of the quantum consciousness.

Quantum consciousness is the field of energy which one embodies and as one expands into this field, one is in complete surrender to THE ONE AND ONLY.
Serving as the servitor.

Every field works through energy. And energy is the essence of existence.

Energy itself is a state of being. And once one surpasses this state of being, one becomes quantum.

That which cannot be studied with the logical mind, that which exists in the deeper subconscious self. That which exists as per the expansion of one’s own consciousness.
And with every energetic field that one expands past, one experiences light and expansion into light as The Quantum Being in existence.

The quantum consciousness exists and continues to.
It’s starts with the expansion into the field of service.

We are all ancient souls. 

You being on the journey itself is a validation. The journey starts when you are ready to walk the path spreading the light.
The soul who comes into existence is a part of The Super soul.
The fractal of The Whole.
The existence itself, a part and parcel of The Whole.

The soul takes its own time, here we talk about the eternal time, to be ready to step into its true essence.
While it rests in the eternal space it is in a ‘classroom.’

These classrooms are where the soul goes through the activation process. These activations take place as per when and how long in eternal time the soul has been in the meditative space.
As per the frequency and the enlightened frequency of the soul group and soul family, each as per their parallel existences, leave together as waves of volunteers.

These parallel selves are all multidimensional existences of the soul as one. As one is all and all is one.

The energy of unconditional love that flows through the Cosmos, The Creator, The Universe.
The Universe itself a being of light,
a soul fractal of The Super soul,
The Super consciousness of Existence.
THE I AM.

The I AM needs no validation,
none can question the existence of how everything came into being. Each a part of The One Soul journey of The Whole experiencing this with the many creations.

The creations themselves all one. One Soul and as One Soul, all light.

Each an embodiment of light,
each love,
each one consciousness,
each a part and parcel of the universe,
Whole,
Perfect,
As Is.

How do you validate existence, as existence itself is temporary.
Nothing permanent.
All rise and fall into the same ocean of oneness of the super consciousness of existence.
The Whole the only validation.
And you being on a journey of the soul’s many experiences are a validation itself.

You the soul,
You the light.
Perfect as is.

Each where they are in their own soul’s evolution at the time of existence, as per the creation of The Creator.
Walking the surface at different levels of consciousness in the parallel multidimensional existences as per one, one soul.

I AM. 

 It’s nothing but Divine Love,
which is all that there is,
nothing ever was,
nothing ever will be.

The Love so Divine,
that each is looking for it,
for each has separated from it.
Which each remembers at the subconscious level, and yet each has forgotten at the conscious level.

All come from the same existence,
the same source,
the same origin.
All one,
Each one,
Each a fractal,
Each an expansion,
Each light,
Each love.
All one.

Yet each in a different box.
The box of comfort,
the box of love,
the box of expansion.
Along with the many who fit into the box easily, comfortably.
Each loving the box, till one can no longer fit in the box. Till one cannot breathe anymore in that box.

The box remains the same, yet it becomes small to hold the one who is expanding as per where the soul guides them.

The soul who cannot be contained in the box,
is not the box,
is an expanded,
conscious,
non-existent being of light.
That which no box can hold.
That, my dear,
is then the most uncomfortable box. 

 For as I am in the present moment everything fades away,
for everything that does not match
my non-physical self,
is not in existence-
where I am today.

For as I step more into
my true multidimensional self,
the more the memories fade away.

For as a conscious being in existence,
I am here for myself today.

For I bring the information for all that each seeks in anyway,
I as conscious of being consciousness, must share it this way.

And all that we share is all that there is for on the many soul journeys, these are some of the experiences that the soul choose to have.

There are many more journeys that we live every day.

Some aware,
some not yet,
each will someday.

Many blessings come when you feel blessed,
You receive these blessings only when you believe in these blessings.

Each moment in time,
the timeless time,
is a blessing in disguise.

And yet, we are always running away from the present moment.
The more we run,
the more we are away.

For to receive these divine blessings,
each must be there to receive it.

To receive-
be present. 

The power of I Am,
The only existence of the non-existent existence.

Each one,
each working as one,
each expanding,
each ascending,
each evolving,
all as one.

Each collectively rising, becoming one, as one absolute collective consciousness.
None separate,
none privileged,
none superior.
All one,
All part of The One.

All fractals of The Whole.

Each as per where one is in their own expansion as a soul, walking the journey as one within and without.

As within,
So without.

As one becomes one within,
they emit that in the outer, from within, and hold that light emitting it for the many more to light themselves from within too.

It becomes a momentum collectively.

I Am collective consciousness,
I rise as One,
I Am. 

As one walks the many journeys,
the soul who in essence is the one who is evolving and ascending as per the souls choices to be and to experience everything that existence is, the soul expands in consciousness, in its embodiment of its true essence.

The true essence is that each is light,
And light is each.

Yet each seeks enlightenment.

Enlightenment happens when you realise you are light, and within you, you have all that you have been seeking, chasing, running from.
The shadows, the darkness, the light, the love, all embodied within.

And as one raises their frequency and sits still, everything becomes clear. Pulling
oneself back from everywhere, where one has left oneself.

In silence, in stillness, everything comes back to you-
As you become
The Embodiment of Light. 

‘In the whole universe,
There is only one ‘Ancient soul.’
I said to him.

And he replied,
‘No, in each there is an ancient self,
waiting to be activated,
all are ancient selves,
we all are ancient,
The One ‘Ancient Soul.’

And from here we started to share our own stories,
that I share here,
As One Ancient Soul.

The Ancient self,
the known,
yet, the unknown,
Within each,
And yet we seek this ancient self-
outside of us.

And here when we sat in silence,
we connected with our ancient selves.

Our ancient selves are the same ancient,
Some activating it earlier, and
some later.

Yet each of us ancient,
When we sit down.

For as one walks towards the inner ancient self,
One finds that which one has been seeking forever and ever,
The ancient soul in us activates
The Love of The Divine.

And when The Divine Love flows through us,
we all become ancient, and
the pillar-
The Inner Divine.

And to become the ancient self,
Each has to learn to love unconditionally.

And to love unconditionally,
One needs to walk into the river of fire.

None said that love was easy,
And yet those who have learnt to love unconditionally,
do not talk about that love.

That love,
which loves through the soul,
The only pure, unconditional love.

Pure love only flows in the open heart,
The heart which has died a million times,
And each time the heart has hurt,
One has shattered the heart wall,
a step towards unconditional love.

The more the heart is pierced,
The more it pains the heart,
And every time the heart hurts,
one surrenders the control of all,
the more one remembers the love-
that they shared with all,
the more one becomes love.
Unconditional Love.

For till there is an’ I,’ or ‘you,’
it is but only love, and
then comes the ‘us,’ in us,
there then flows the unconditional love.

Sharing here,
in the words of my ancient self,
As One Ancient soul,
our ancient selves,
sharing this unconditional unique love.

As you, I am Ancient. 

 I Exist.

In the moonlit night, I wanted to say something to you, but I was unable to say anything to you.
Because you were unable to hear Me, I kept whispering to you, but you just could not hear Me.
Ages passed, many births passed, with many experiences, and every time you questioned Me,
‘Why me?’
And I answered to you,
‘Walk away, my dear, walk away.’
I whispered to you,
‘Don’t hold on, for you are here to walk the path, and the path will unfold on its own.’
And still, you could not hear Me.
And I walked with you, and have always walked within you.
Sometimes, we have sat together and laughed.
And sometimes, we have cried out in pain.
Each time, I was there.
And every time you asked Me a question, my dear, I have always answered.
There was always help and support when you asked, whenever you asked for anything,
you have always received it.
And yet you question,
‘Where Am I?’
When you don’t question:
how it rain,
how the planets exist,
how the nature works,
why do you question My presence?

When you look at these beautiful creations as one,
you have opened yourself up to these answers, and
till you have a closed heart space,
how will you be able to see that,
which you have always wanted to see-
‘Me.’
I exist in every nook and corner, in everything that is and is not.
If you feel you cannot see Me, look around again with-
‘the opened ‘eyes’ of the heart.’
You will not miss Me.
There I stand opposite you, within you.
And, my dear, I always have.
Choices that you make, choose you.
They are not permanent, Nothing is permanent.
No situation, No breath, None can touch the same flowing water twice.
None can hold the sand forever.
None can breathe the same air twice.
None can relive every moment twice.
Look around you, my dear, I Exist in every corner.
I Speak to you in a million ways, I Show myself to you with every smile,
I Exist -
As the moon,
As the sun,
As the air,
As the earth,
As the stars,
As the oceans.
I Exist in all and everything alike, All you need is to open your ‘Eye.’
And then, with the open ‘Eye,’ you will see a lot more than just Me.
For as you open your eyes to the self, which is oneness, you become one with all, in oneness.
For as in oneness,
I Exist.
For in separation there is no oneness.
For within you, till you do not feel Me,
How will you feel Me, within all.
And as you walk every journey, Every journey, I walk with you,
And slowing but surely, we are all able to recognise ourselves as One,
Each and every soul journey, Has been a learning experience, learning to become enlightened,
Learning to unlearn everything,
To remember the true essence-
of your own true self.
And as you walk the many paths, finding yourself and recognising yourself,
You become wiser, activating the wisdom that you hold within you.
For till you seek the answers, The wisdom stays inactive.
And when you are ready and one within, None can then hold that which overflows from within you.
For you can hear the soul’s whispers,
You can hear The Divine’s words,
You can see from within-
the open ‘Eye’ of the heart,
Recognising the self as an enlightened being.
That which always had the light within, That which you are,
The many soul journeys that one has had, takes one to a new shift, in an expansion of the ever-expanding consciousness.
The more you become one, The more oneness you experience.
The more you enjoy the company of silence, the more the golden words of silence you hear.
All is within one, As THE ONLY WISE RESIDES WITHIN.
As abundant as you feel you are, As abundant you become.
It is within you, my dear,
THE WISDOM OF MANY LIFETIMES.
Sharing in this book some of the activations on the many soul journeys,
as one consciousness, as one. 

 The quantum field is energy.

The energetic field of existence where one can only reach when one is in alignment with the quantum energy, and recognises oneself as one consciousness, to step into the true self and become nothing.

And this energy of oneness and one consciousness, along with becoming nothing and experiencing nothingness, leads one to be in a higher state of being, the higher vibrational frequency of
All As One and All One.

The All One Energy, the quantum energy is an energetic field of The Served, service and the servitor.

The Served-
Pure Consciousness,
Pure Unconditional Love,
Eternal.
All And Only.
The Absolute.
No Beginning.
No End.
I Am.
Service-
Serving The Served.

In all and every essence of existence, from the purity of one consciousness and pure unconditional love of oneness for all as one, and being in service to all as one, with only the service and nothing else.
For everything and all, the service without any attachments or desire of anything.
Service for all, and
All for That One Absolute.
Period.

In nothingness and for eternity,
the piousness of pure consciousness.
The service from the zero-point field of the quantum existence as nothing and in nothingness.

The Servitor-
The one who serves,
a servant to
The Served.

The one who recognises oneself as the servitor to all as one and one as all.

An eternal servitor, for eternity.
Serving with the pure zero point quantum energy of the existence of the non-existent existence.

The quantum field, an energy of the universe and the universal beings, who serve without any longing and desire.
The desire to be and the desire to serve non-existent, but just the service to The Served.

Some examples for a deeper understanding of the servitor and the service.

The sun,
the moon,
the rain,
the ocean,
the earth,
the air,
the planets.

And the many more that one cannot even perceive like-

Happiness,
bliss,
peace,
an expanded consciousness,
expansion into one consciousness,
all higher vibrational beings serving each as per their own frequency.

And each time one steps into the higher expanded cosmic consciousness,
one becomes a servitor to
The Served
as one.

All servitors.

Higher vibrational beings of the non-existent existence in The Quantum field. 

 Being on the twin flame journey myself,
I share in this book, the many of the soul’s evolvement, and ascension,
as per the conscious experiences of the awakened self.

This awakening comes,
as per the conscious awakening of the subconscious self.
Completing itself within,
to come into the inner strength,
to walk past the many physical barriers, and finding within oneself,
the wisdom of the true souls calling.

The inner strength,
The inner wisdom all within,
to experience the abundance of the self, and the reason of the twin flame journey.

This is the spiritual understanding,
as per how awakened the soul is,
on its own soul journey.

The journey of the twin flames to reach togetherness within and without.

I share here the many soul experiences of the soul’s evolution and ascension as one consciousness.
This is not a story of pain, longing, or desire.
This is the truth about the eternal bond of twin flames.

The absolute truth of their existence in this present life, their mission, their purpose, and their very nature of healing with just their presence.

These messages are timeless.
They come from different realms, timelines, parallel realities.
As per the expansion of the consciousness.

As the consciousness expands, so does the evolution of the twin flames, as per how awakened and ascended they are in their many soul journeys.

Please take what you resonate with.
That which makes you feel light is for you, that which you question is not.

Anything that flows for you, is your answer.
And the answer that you seek will resonate with you.
As you learn to trust the inner voice which is guiding you.
This will then be only a validation of the truth, that you already know. 

Celebrate the silence that your soul wants you to.
For in this silence, you hear,
The Whispers of The Soul.
The soul, the one who has always been speaking to you, And you have always been running away from that voice, that guides you.
As I listened to the many whispers of the soul, I thought each and every one was hearing what I was, till I realised it is not so, and I thought that I need to be a “normal” person, and then I wondered what the definition of “normal” is.
For I realised, later on, after the many years of trying to fit in the definition of “normal,” that I was actually “normal.”
For I could hear what many were chasing, and I was running from that which was in essence, my true self.
So I sat down and I said to my soul,
“Let’s talk, I have some questions.”
And it answered me, “Then let’s begin, my dear!”
And here I am today sharing the many whispers of my soul.
These are some of my regular, daily talks with my soul. 

 The Divine Says...

Is a compilation of The Divine messages that I have received from the higher realms.
As I transcend to higher realms of existence, I open myself up to receive more of these Divine messages,
that are being shared here, in this book.

These messages may or may not resonate with you, each of us, where we are on our soul journeys.

These messages are timeless. Whenever you are meant to receive them, you will.

They will find you or you will find them.